Hello again,

Just me here, about to “complain” about my job once again. I don’t know why I put quotations around complain, because that’s what it really is.

Ok, so here’s the thing, I work for 2 physicians. One who is probably going to retire here shortly and the other is still working full force. They are both orthopedic surgeons, one of which also runs the ortho residency program here through the main hospital. When I interviewed for this position the practice manager stated this is a fast-paced working environment, you will need to be able to multi-task and be able to cross train in certain areas. At the time, I was thinking “awesome, this sounds like the perfect job and I get to work with ortho doctors again and be around patients.” Boy was the practice manager (mostly) wrong. I mean, when you say this is a full-time position, I have no idea how someone could do this and be pleased with their life for several years…

When the physician signs a patient up for surgery they are brought to my office (which, by the way, enables my already social awkwardness) and I take down some info and provide them with a folder with all their appointments and such. But then I am done, literally until the week before their procedure. That’s it. Very rarely do I need to follow up with Primary Care Physicians, Cardiologists, etc to provide clearance for a patient prior to surgery, but even then it’s not an ongoing task. Granted, I do occasionally need to juggle the phone (to actually schedule the surgery at the hospital), a patient asking me questions and a co-worker asking me about something completely different, but again, that is like once every two months.

I know I have only been here for 7 months, so maybe it’ll pick up towards the end of the summer, but I don’t know. I feel like if I start looking for another position right now, or in the near future, my family and friends are just going to think badly of me once again for jumping from job to job. I just cannot see myself being happy in this position for much longer. I need so much more to do, more brain stimulation, more things to handle. I WANT to multi-task– EVERY DAY! I want to look at the clock at the end of the day and think “where the heck did the day go?” instead of “how the f is it only 1:30?” I’m not sure if anyone else feels this way about their current job, or maybe it’s just me.

I was so used to being so busy all the time in my previous positions, that I just can’t do this for much longer. When I have an incredible amount of time on my hands almost every work day to research houses or check on my status of schooling, or type blog posts (LOL). There are only so many copies of handouts I can put together, only so many schedules I can put together for the following week for the doctor..

I guess I just don’t understand how a doctor who literally sees 70-80 patients on Mondays and Wednesdays and about 30 on Fridays only give me about 4-5 people per week to schedule.

Sorry for being ridiculous, but I need more in my life! UGH.

Thanks for reading, I hope you’re having a better week (career) than me.

-MB

I hate being stupid.

Gah, this just sucks so much. I clearly understand I should have tried harder in high school with my grades and testing, but my college courses and my final GPA wasn’t horrible. I received the e-mail I was super excited to get, however, it did not contain the best information. The guidelines for “admission” or a seat in the selective health programs states you must have at least 55 points to be considered for the Surgical Technology program. Apparently, during this particular evaluation of students I had to have at least 72 points.

My guess is that it is almost all new high school graduates with great grades and test scores who are in. And then there’s me, I’ve been out of high school for 7 years now (holy crap!) and out of college for 3 years (damn!). I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life and now I am put on a waiting list with the hopes that (6- UGH) students will deny their seat. I mean, really though, who would apply to the program only to not want to attend. Makes no sense to me.

I just really hate that I applied myself in college and only a couple of those grades count toward my file for this community college. ALSO, the fact that ACT scores are necessary is kind of bogus too, since I took that FOREVER ago.

I guess you know you’ve hit bottom and cannot come back from horrible high school grades, test scores and decisions made when you’re “wait listed” at a community college.

I apologize for the ranting, this is just frustrating and I just really wanted this.

Hoping those 6 students decide to venture off to bigger schools and other programs!

Thanks for reading, if you did.

-MB

LGBTQIA+ (thoughts…)

I am absolutely 110% in support of all persons within the LGBTQIA+ community, without a doubt. I just noticed something the other day one of my friends posted on Facebook. They consider themselves non-binary transgender. They prefer the pronouns They, Them, Their. I guess they consider themselves to be masculine non-binary transgender. For some reason, this kind of -ish doesn’t make sense to me..

I know there are so many genders that absolutely exist. I am not saying they don’t. I noticed this friend posted a picture of them and the caption stated “I took apart, transported and assembled this children’s playset. I am now either your new dad or your new husband. I don’t make the rules.” For some reason this hit me in an odd way, and maybe someone can explain it to me.

If someone considers themselves to be non-binary trans, can they also be masculine? This person continues to be offended when other misuse pronouns (completely understandable), however, they ALWAYS tend to ridicule and shame cis-hetero individuals. If you are striving for a world of equality of all sorts, should you truly be calling out ALL cis-het persons? I feel like that goes against everything. I understand that some people clearly purposefully misgender trans persons, which makes me want to punch them in the face, but for those who continuously work on it and accidentally slip up, give them a break. They validate you as a HUMAN BEING. You shouldn’t be ridiculing them or shaming them for this mistake. Instead, take it and using as a teaching tool. Help them out if they would like it/need the assistance or teaching.

This kind of got a little out of hand, but I just needed to put this out there.

If anyone has some answers regarding my above question:

Can a non-binary trans person consider themselves to masculine?

Please inform me.

-MB

Distance.

I’ve come to realize in the past couple of months or so the main reason why I am not fully enjoying my job is because I continue to put myself into position of my old job in Colorado. I gave my phone number to the new assistant that works with the doctor and PA I used to work with in case she has any questions related to his clinic, surgery scheduling, etc. Probably a bad idea on my behalf. Not because I have a problem helping people out, in fact, it’s the complete opposite. I love helping others and giving them advice or tips to make it through tough situations in clinic or otherwise. But it’s not my place anymore.

I need to learn to distance myself from that doctor, PA and their new clinical liaison, as difficult as it might be. I wish so much that I could work remotely for them because I know she is having a difficult time with surgery scheduling and is becoming quite overwhelmed, but again, it’s not my place anymore. I gave it up. Someone else has it now.

If I distance myself with those co-workers that will allow me to fully enjoy the work I am doing at this company, with these new co-workers and doctors. I truly enjoy working in the field orthopedics and I do enjoy my job, however, I could use a lot more work to do… which is probably why I am envious of my old doctor’s new assistant, I know she’s got a lot of work to do. Which is good.. for her. I need to focus on my job, my life in Michigan and job in Ohio. I need to stop getting involved with their clinic and the “drama” that continues to happen. It is so so difficult, but I feel like this is absolutely what I need.