I hate being stupid.

Gah, this just sucks so much. I clearly understand I should have tried harder in high school with my grades and testing, but my college courses and my final GPA wasn’t horrible. I received the e-mail I was super excited to get, however, it did not contain the best information. The guidelines for “admission” or a seat in the selective health programs states you must have at least 55 points to be considered for the Surgical Technology program. Apparently, during this particular evaluation of students I had to have at least 72 points.

My guess is that it is almost all new high school graduates with great grades and test scores who are in. And then there’s me, I’ve been out of high school for 7 years now (holy crap!) and out of college for 3 years (damn!). I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life and now I am put on a waiting list with the hopes that (6- UGH) students will deny their seat. I mean, really though, who would apply to the program only to not want to attend. Makes no sense to me.

I just really hate that I applied myself in college and only a couple of those grades count toward my file for this community college. ALSO, the fact that ACT scores are necessary is kind of bogus too, since I took that FOREVER ago.

I guess you know you’ve hit bottom and cannot come back from horrible high school grades, test scores and decisions made when you’re “wait listed” at a community college.

I apologize for the ranting, this is just frustrating and I just really wanted this.

Hoping those 6 students decide to venture off to bigger schools and other programs!

Thanks for reading, if you did.

-MB

Guidance.

One week from today. That is the deadline for the select health program seat requests. I already submitted my request about 2 weeks (I think) ago. I am so anxious about this, not really sure why, but I am.

It was kind of odd, actually, when I was completing my undergrad classes and applying to the Nursing program at my previous university, I was not quite as anxious. Really, I don’t think it was because I wasn’t excited, or I don’t know, maybe it was. But this time around, a different program, a different college, a completely different part of my life. Recently, I have just been so incredibly excited to (hopefully) start the Surgical Technology program in the Fall. I get so excited and pumped just thinking of what clinicals will be like and what procedures I could scrub in on either as a student or merely an observer, either way, I am so excited.

I just pray this is the path God is leading me towards. Although, some days I feel like that is not the way to pray to and/or with God. He knows what He is doing in my life and with my dreams, goals and aspirations.  I need not worry about my life. It is just so nerve-racking to know this may not be the path for me, I just wish there was a way I knew… but unfortunately that is not the way the Lord works.

This blog is not meant to get into my religion and/or prayers, but I just wanted to lay this out there today. I just need someone in the interwebs to pray with me.

(The deadline is May 17th and they said it could take up to 2 weeks following that to let students know if they’ve been given a seat or not).

That is all,

Happy Hump Day!

-MB