Hello again,

Just me here, about to “complain” about my job once again. I don’t know why I put quotations around complain, because that’s what it really is.

Ok, so here’s the thing, I work for 2 physicians. One who is probably going to retire here shortly and the other is still working full force. They are both orthopedic surgeons, one of which also runs the ortho residency program here through the main hospital. When I interviewed for this position the practice manager stated this is a fast-paced working environment, you will need to be able to multi-task and be able to cross train in certain areas. At the time, I was thinking “awesome, this sounds like the perfect job and I get to work with ortho doctors again and be around patients.” Boy was the practice manager (mostly) wrong. I mean, when you say this is a full-time position, I have no idea how someone could do this and be pleased with their life for several years…

When the physician signs a patient up for surgery they are brought to my office (which, by the way, enables my already social awkwardness) and I take down some info and provide them with a folder with all their appointments and such. But then I am done, literally until the week before their procedure. That’s it. Very rarely do I need to follow up with Primary Care Physicians, Cardiologists, etc to provide clearance for a patient prior to surgery, but even then it’s not an ongoing task. Granted, I do occasionally need to juggle the phone (to actually schedule the surgery at the hospital), a patient asking me questions and a co-worker asking me about something completely different, but again, that is like once every two months.

I know I have only been here for 7 months, so maybe it’ll pick up towards the end of the summer, but I don’t know. I feel like if I start looking for another position right now, or in the near future, my family and friends are just going to think badly of me once again for jumping from job to job. I just cannot see myself being happy in this position for much longer. I need so much more to do, more brain stimulation, more things to handle. I WANT to multi-task– EVERY DAY! I want to look at the clock at the end of the day and think “where the heck did the day go?” instead of “how the f is it only 1:30?” I’m not sure if anyone else feels this way about their current job, or maybe it’s just me.

I was so used to being so busy all the time in my previous positions, that I just can’t do this for much longer. When I have an incredible amount of time on my hands almost every work day to research houses or check on my status of schooling, or type blog posts (LOL). There are only so many copies of handouts I can put together, only so many schedules I can put together for the following week for the doctor..

I guess I just don’t understand how a doctor who literally sees 70-80 patients on Mondays and Wednesdays and about 30 on Fridays only give me about 4-5 people per week to schedule.

Sorry for being ridiculous, but I need more in my life! UGH.

Thanks for reading, I hope you’re having a better week (career) than me.

-MB

Never stop exploring.

IMG_94945.29.17 Bird Hills Nature Area// Ann Arbor, MI

Yesterday was so incredibly beautiful. We left the apartment around 9am to do a short 3 mile hike at a nearby park. I often “complain” about not being close to the mountains and Colorado that I don’t take advantage of the beautiful nature and vast trails we have right here in Michigan.

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I could not get enough of the beautiful greeeeeeen trees on those trails. The sun was just starting to shine through the leaves and it was gorgeous.

IMG_94965.29.17 North Bay Park // Ypsilanti, MI

You may notice in the posts to come that I have a slight obsession with weeping willows. Whether they are full of life or barely hanging on, gosh they are beautiful.

Willow trees with their long flowy leaves are just to die for.

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I’ll post this one just to showcase my husband’s mad photog. skills ❤

Well, that’s all for now.

Hope you all had a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend, God Bless those who have sacrificed so much and those who continue to and will in the future. I thank you all for your serve. Freedom isn’t free.

-MB

I hate being stupid.

Gah, this just sucks so much. I clearly understand I should have tried harder in high school with my grades and testing, but my college courses and my final GPA wasn’t horrible. I received the e-mail I was super excited to get, however, it did not contain the best information. The guidelines for “admission” or a seat in the selective health programs states you must have at least 55 points to be considered for the Surgical Technology program. Apparently, during this particular evaluation of students I had to have at least 72 points.

My guess is that it is almost all new high school graduates with great grades and test scores who are in. And then there’s me, I’ve been out of high school for 7 years now (holy crap!) and out of college for 3 years (damn!). I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life and now I am put on a waiting list with the hopes that (6- UGH) students will deny their seat. I mean, really though, who would apply to the program only to not want to attend. Makes no sense to me.

I just really hate that I applied myself in college and only a couple of those grades count toward my file for this community college. ALSO, the fact that ACT scores are necessary is kind of bogus too, since I took that FOREVER ago.

I guess you know you’ve hit bottom and cannot come back from horrible high school grades, test scores and decisions made when you’re “wait listed” at a community college.

I apologize for the ranting, this is just frustrating and I just really wanted this.

Hoping those 6 students decide to venture off to bigger schools and other programs!

Thanks for reading, if you did.

-MB

Such a small part of this life.

So often we worry so much about such little things in life, when there are far worse situations happening in this world. Last night before going to bed, I asked my husband “Hey, did you see the walk out at Notre Dame during Mike Pence’s commencement speech?” and his response was “No, but did you hear about the bombing during the Ariana Grande concert?”

We become so engrossed in petty politics, little arguments and everything else these days and they mean so little in this life. The fact that there are now 22 fatalities and 59 critically injured is so incredibly heartbreaking. They have come forth to identify 2 individuals, one being an 18 year old girl and the other an 8 year old. A suicide bomber was in Manchester, England last night where hundreds of men, women and children were minding their own business enjoying possibly their favorite artist, and out of nowhere, were struck with such tragedy. I cannot even begin to imagine the heartache, shock, fear and everything else they all must be feeling during this time.

It is so sad that we must watch everything, everywhere at all times. We  have absolutely no idea what could be around the corner. I wish we could just live our lives without the worry of a suicide bomber being in the building and/or potentially sitting next to me somewhere in the future.

Ugh. This world is such a cruel place filled with some cruel, cruel people. I pray for Manchester and the victims of that attack and I hope they find peace in this incredibly difficult time. Life is so damn precious.

Guidance.

One week from today. That is the deadline for the select health program seat requests. I already submitted my request about 2 weeks (I think) ago. I am so anxious about this, not really sure why, but I am.

It was kind of odd, actually, when I was completing my undergrad classes and applying to the Nursing program at my previous university, I was not quite as anxious. Really, I don’t think it was because I wasn’t excited, or I don’t know, maybe it was. But this time around, a different program, a different college, a completely different part of my life. Recently, I have just been so incredibly excited to (hopefully) start the Surgical Technology program in the Fall. I get so excited and pumped just thinking of what clinicals will be like and what procedures I could scrub in on either as a student or merely an observer, either way, I am so excited.

I just pray this is the path God is leading me towards. Although, some days I feel like that is not the way to pray to and/or with God. He knows what He is doing in my life and with my dreams, goals and aspirations.  I need not worry about my life. It is just so nerve-racking to know this may not be the path for me, I just wish there was a way I knew… but unfortunately that is not the way the Lord works.

This blog is not meant to get into my religion and/or prayers, but I just wanted to lay this out there today. I just need someone in the interwebs to pray with me.

(The deadline is May 17th and they said it could take up to 2 weeks following that to let students know if they’ve been given a seat or not).

That is all,

Happy Hump Day!

-MB

Distance.

I’ve come to realize in the past couple of months or so the main reason why I am not fully enjoying my job is because I continue to put myself into position of my old job in Colorado. I gave my phone number to the new assistant that works with the doctor and PA I used to work with in case she has any questions related to his clinic, surgery scheduling, etc. Probably a bad idea on my behalf. Not because I have a problem helping people out, in fact, it’s the complete opposite. I love helping others and giving them advice or tips to make it through tough situations in clinic or otherwise. But it’s not my place anymore.

I need to learn to distance myself from that doctor, PA and their new clinical liaison, as difficult as it might be. I wish so much that I could work remotely for them because I know she is having a difficult time with surgery scheduling and is becoming quite overwhelmed, but again, it’s not my place anymore. I gave it up. Someone else has it now.

If I distance myself with those co-workers that will allow me to fully enjoy the work I am doing at this company, with these new co-workers and doctors. I truly enjoy working in the field orthopedics and I do enjoy my job, however, I could use a lot more work to do… which is probably why I am envious of my old doctor’s new assistant, I know she’s got a lot of work to do. Which is good.. for her. I need to focus on my job, my life in Michigan and job in Ohio. I need to stop getting involved with their clinic and the “drama” that continues to happen. It is so so difficult, but I feel like this is absolutely what I need.

What was wrong with your other job?

While in the position of Patient Care Tech at a very well known health system in Michigan, I couldn’t stop asking myself if this was really what I wanted in life. I absolutely love caring for others, primarily working in healthcare. I love being a “side kick” for the most part.

In Colorado, I worked as a Clinical Liaison for an Orthopedic surgeon. That was something I had never even imagined I would do. For the many years before that I was a Certified Nursing Assistant who cleaned butts and fed the elderly for a living (which, by the way, I LOVE). But it was completely different from my new position I landed in CO. Maybe the fondness grew from my computer skills and my love for technology which became incorporated with anatomy and physiology, my other obsession in life. Or maybe it all boiled down to WHO I was working with. The surgeon and his PA became some of the best mentors I have had in my life. They taught me so much about medicine, I nearly considered PA school, but then there’s the fact that I probably wouldn’t make it through that.

While working with the surgeon, he flew to an outreach clinic in rural South East Colorado one Friday a month. This was probably one of the best parts of working with him. Typically in clinic I did all the charting and he would dictate his patient plan for each visit. In the outreach clinic he would dictate everything. A nice break for me 🙂 But that wasn’t my favorite part. On our ride back to Denver, we would end up sitting awkwardly across from each other on an old Flight for Life plane and that’s when the life talks happened. He constantly asked me when I was going to apply for nursing school or what happened in undergrad that made me give up on that dream. In all honesty, it was the instructors, but then it came down to maybe that’s not what I am meant to do.

There are still many things that attract me to Nursing which include being in the action (the blood and guts of it, if you will), working side by side with physicians and surgeons and the patient contact aspect as well. Nursing is one of, if not, the hardest degree programs nationwide. I applaud any individual who pursues and achieves this accomplishment. When I was 3 I definitely thought I was going to. But things change and I am okay with that. The one thing I am not entirely pleased with is stagnation. I love my job right now, I get to work with surgeons and nurses and great MAs, but I sit at a desk, staring constantly at a computer screen, while occasionally a patient is brought to my office to schedule a surgery (which really only takes me 5 minutes). I do love this, but I really do miss the constant patient/surgeon interaction and the HANDS ON medicine.

With ALL of that said, I know there are many careers out there that seem to embody the aspects of the career in healthcare I am looking for. Now I am looking toward becoming a Surgical Technologist. I would be in the OR all the time, side by side with the surgeon and watching procedures right in front of my eyes. That would be incredible. I remember experiencing my first surgery as a nursing student where they did a total knee replacement (ha, ironic), but it was by far the most incredible experience I have had educationally speaking. I want to feel that excitement every day of my life! In the past 6 or 7 months I have changed my mind SO MANY TIMES, including contemplating grad school, nursing school, radiology tech programs, recreational therapy, etc. so maybe this is just another phase, but then again, maybe not. I do remember though, when Justin was thinking of attending a Vet Tech program in CO I came across Surgical Technologist programs and heavily considered it (back in 2014). I know A LOT has changed in my life since then.

I wish there was a button I could push that would tell me what the correct career choice is for me. UGH. But, such is life, there is no answer button.